Where can we find you if tumblr dies?

That is a good question!  I have been tirelessly trying to cover all of my bases so that I am also wherever most other people decide to go. Currently, I can be found at the following:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/allisondraste

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Deviant Art: https://www.deviantart.com/allisonsaurus/gallery/

Pillowfort:  Username – allisondraste (I haven’t made any posts yet, and I do not have a profile pic, but I’m working on it 😉 )

WordPress: I am currently in the process of importing my tumblr over there, so I do not have a URL for it yet, but I will post that as soon as it is up. 😀

Discord: If you’re interested in chatting on discord, send me a PM 

Thanks for asking friend!! 

Cullen and PTSD or: This really has to stop.

baratheon:

“I hate Cullen, he should have stayed a serial killer how dare Bioware retcon that because he was a pretty blond white boy”

This is a really common reaction that I see. And while I won’t begrudge anyone who dislikes the character for personal reasons, shit like this HAS to stop.

Why? Well, primarily because of one thing: It perpetuates harmful myths about PTSD.

Cullen has PTSD. While it’s not directly stated, there is no way to deny he is clearly written that way. For instance, some common symptoms he exhibits are (source):

  • Nightmares (As shown in his romance scene in Dragon Age: Inquisition)
  • Feelings of intense distress when reminded of the trauma (His entire demeanor in Early Act 1 of Dragon Age 2, where instead of receiving proper treatment, Meredith instead encourages his feelings)
  • Distorted Perceptions of the Perpetrator. (”After what happened, I assumed all mages were like the ones in Ferelden”)
  • Sense of a limited future (Continuing to serve the Templars for years after the fact)
  • Hypervigilance (Again, encouraged by Meredith)
  • Feeling jumpy and easily startled (Samson’s comment on how he was “afraid of his own shadow”)

Now that we’ve established that, we can look at some common myths perpetuated about ptsd and how they are perpetuated by Bioware’s original slide in one outcome of Origins’ epilogue: 

The young templar Cullen never quite recovered from his ordeal. After months of attempting to convince his superiors that the tower was still a danger, he finally snapped and killed three apprentices before being stopped by his fellow templars. Eventually, Cullen escaped from prison, a madman and a threat to any mage he encountered.” 

People with PTSD are crazy and/or dangerous. Several classic war movies, as well as sensationalized media coverage, have helped perpetuate the “crazy war vet” stereotype, which is an inaccurate depiction. PTSD is not characterized by psychosis or violence. Rather, symptoms of PTSD surround coping with the memory and implications of a traumatic experience (e.g., distressing memories and changes in mood). Furthermore, “crazy” is never the best word choice. “Crazy” is not a diagnosis, rather it is a damaging and stigmatizing label. – This is something we can all agree that was represented by the original Origins epilogue slide. The harmful portrayal of PTSD sufferers as serial killers or “madman” in the case of Cullen, harms actual survivors IRL, particularly combat veterans. By retconning this, Bioware was actually able to PRESENT real PTSD symptoms as shown above.

In addition to this big one, there’s also the following implications:

Nothing can be done for those with who have PTSD. By having Cullen never fully recover from his ordeal, yet another harmful stereotype is being perpetuated.

You must have done something awful to get PTSD. This is more of a fandom thing than something distinctly related to the slide, but a lot of critical posts I’ve seen imply that Cullen always hated mages and this was just an “excuse”. When, as stated above, one of the symptoms of PTSD (the Complex variation i particular, which occurs in torture victims) can be distorted perceptions of the group or perpetrator. 

Well, at least you didn’t get hurt. Another fandom reaction that I see is “well he wasn’t actually hurt and didn’t go through the same trauma someone like Fenris did”. Which again, diminishes the harmful effects of months of mental torture. (There’s a lot to talk about Fenris and PTSD as well, but that’s another post for another time)

(two sources

And these are only from a few quick searches. Further research would definitely turn up more misconceptions but I’m afraid I’m already tl’dring as it is.

Bioware’s original slide was INCREDIBLY ableist.  What we end up seeing of Cullen afterward is a far more accurate depiction of PTSD than what was originally presented, for whatever reason that they changed it. Hate the character all you want (especially if you do have personal reasons), criticize other depictions of mental illness (Anders and bipolar, for instance) but please, don’t perpetuate harmful stereotypes about PTSD while you do so, even unintentionally. And do NOT imply people who like him are somehow abuse sympathizers when (especially in Inquisition) he is a very strong example of someone copiing with PTSD.

OTP In 5 GIFs

I was tagged by the wonderful @mocha-writes (Tysm these are my favorite!!!) to do another OTP in 5 gifs meme, and since I have already done one for my usual suspects (even though the Amellistair one got flagged for no reason 🙄), I thought I’d take this opportunity to explore my lil’ ship from my MGiT fic. Krem and Heather! I really love them a lot, and I can’t wait to actually write about their relationship 😀

Bonus: The Iron Bull and Cole re: Krem ‘n’ Heather

Im not going to tag a bunch of people, because I’m feeling self-conscious but if you see this and want to do it, consider yourself tagged by me. Also, @dalish-ish I’d, uh, love to see one for Adan and Lysette if you’re up to it. No pressure though ♥️

corseque:

“I’m really bad at writing bad guys. If you give me, “Hey write a villain,” I will turn in a serviceable villain and he will probably say snarky things about you. But if you tell me to write someone who is morally conflicted or someone who is doing something awful for what he thinks is a fully moral reason, that’s where I can really dig my teeth into it. [Solas] doesn’t kick puppies. He very rarely, in fact, will even suggest something morally questionable. He might approve of it, but what he really approves of is intelligence and thoughtfulness, even if that intelligence and thoughtfulness is coupled with something that is ruthless or something that is not what you would think of as the Nice Guy Route. It’s just: “You’ve thought this through, the most important thing to do right now is eliminate these bad guys – okay, good!” That’s the kind of thing he will approve of. But yeah, he is always the person who’s going to look for more thoughtful solutions. If you look at his banters…. One of the things I’ve tossed out to people, since I can’t give any hard answers, is if you want to understand Solas, listen to the things that he brings up on his own. He is one of the strongest believers in freedom of personal thought. And yeah, the Qun is one of the things that I’d say gets him angriest in the game. If you look at the few places he gets really, really angry in the game, it’s: 1) when talking to Iron Bull [about the Qun], especially if you sacrifice the Chargers. Solas and Bull have one last banter, and Solas cuts him to the bone. 2) it’s watching the idiot mages bind his buddy and turn his buddy into a demon. 3) and he does not like what the Wardens are doing. He does not like their plan. He thinks their plan is bad.”

— Patrick Weekes (writer of Solas, Cole and Iron Bull), from this interview (via corseque)